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jessipsaloquiturOctober. I love this month! While you wouldn't know it was Fall by the high temperatures here in the Arizona desert, you can still tell that the summer heat has broken -- the mornings and evenings are once again cool, and sometime toward the middle of the month our midday temperatures will hit perfection. Plus, you know, I've got the MLB playoffs on my t.v. screen, so you know it's October!
October is a contradictory month for me. One the one hand, it's the beginning of the dark time of the year which is very much an introspective, going inside, staying home, hermit-y, thinky time of year for me. On the other hand, because the summer heat here is so extreme, any break in that feels very fresh, like a new start, and I'm motivated to start projects, recommit to goals, and just generally DO things. During the Fall and early Winter, I often find myself balancing these two pulls -- in or out, think or do, isolate or socialize.
All this to get to my point: I rejoined Weight Watchers today (part of that recommitting to goals and just generally "doing" thing that I was talking about). Since I'm on a brief, economically-induced hiatus from Trainer!Boy, I really needed some other method of accountability. But, I really didn't want to deal with the rah-rah of meetings (hermit-y much? See, I told you I was full of contradictions this time of year), so I'm doing the online program. I mention it here in order to add another layer of accountability. That would be y'all. *g*
All this is related to the tattoo I got last week -- which, by the way, is at that itchy, dry, skin-peely, really fucking annoying stage *resists the urge to scratch* -- or, more precisely, to my motivation for recommitting to my health and wellness goals. There are several layers of personal symbolism for the dragonfly, the knot, and the spiral, that I may deconstruct here some day, but one of the things that the tat as a whole represents for me is the concept of loving myself, as I am. Before doing all the work I've done in the past couple of years around body image, self love, self-acceptance, I had always thought I'd get ink when I had lost X pounds, or when I was skinny enough, or when I was wearing a certain size, etc., etc., etc. It was a symbolism of beauty that I never thought myself worthy of. Well, obviously I'm over that. *g* And it's from that perspective that I rejoined WW: I love myself, as I am, and I therefore want to care for myself with healthy nutritional decisions and regular exercise.
Hm. I didn't think I was going to get so verbose. Anyway, yes, it's October!!! What's your favorite thing about this month?
October is a contradictory month for me. One the one hand, it's the beginning of the dark time of the year which is very much an introspective, going inside, staying home, hermit-y, thinky time of year for me. On the other hand, because the summer heat here is so extreme, any break in that feels very fresh, like a new start, and I'm motivated to start projects, recommit to goals, and just generally DO things. During the Fall and early Winter, I often find myself balancing these two pulls -- in or out, think or do, isolate or socialize.
All this to get to my point: I rejoined Weight Watchers today (part of that recommitting to goals and just generally "doing" thing that I was talking about). Since I'm on a brief, economically-induced hiatus from Trainer!Boy, I really needed some other method of accountability. But, I really didn't want to deal with the rah-rah of meetings (hermit-y much? See, I told you I was full of contradictions this time of year), so I'm doing the online program. I mention it here in order to add another layer of accountability. That would be y'all. *g*
All this is related to the tattoo I got last week -- which, by the way, is at that itchy, dry, skin-peely, really fucking annoying stage *resists the urge to scratch* -- or, more precisely, to my motivation for recommitting to my health and wellness goals. There are several layers of personal symbolism for the dragonfly, the knot, and the spiral, that I may deconstruct here some day, but one of the things that the tat as a whole represents for me is the concept of loving myself, as I am. Before doing all the work I've done in the past couple of years around body image, self love, self-acceptance, I had always thought I'd get ink when I had lost X pounds, or when I was skinny enough, or when I was wearing a certain size, etc., etc., etc. It was a symbolism of beauty that I never thought myself worthy of. Well, obviously I'm over that. *g* And it's from that perspective that I rejoined WW: I love myself, as I am, and I therefore want to care for myself with healthy nutritional decisions and regular exercise.
Hm. I didn't think I was going to get so verbose. Anyway, yes, it's October!!! What's your favorite thing about this month?
